one year later...

The world has changed. thats about all I've got. Life is a crazy ride and I'm learning to enjoy it. The funny thing is that i hate rides.

Motivation in the last bit of high school is hard to keep, even in the things i like.

I've discovered that I like poetry a lot and find my self writing it a ton. If you want me to show you some let me know.

I should try to post more than once a year.

So its 10:30 I’m finally eating dinner and haven’t started the paper I need to write to night. Emotion, stress and lack of sleep have been affecting me greatly. I’m over analyzing thing but when I think I am I question weather or not I’m not analyzing it enough. Relationships with friends and or more than friends are either in an awkward stage or seem to bee falling apart. People don't seem to be talking about the important stuff any more its just all drama. I feel that I’m in the middle of some sort of crisis but know one is telling me what it is. I feel like a def man who can’t hear the gunshots or the bullets flying past his head.

Damage has been done but I think I could have been avoided, or at least lessoned if people would talk face to face more and really come to a conclusion or make an effort to change. But now that the wound in there I need to do what I can to start to wash it out and patch it up so it ca heal. The cleaning hurts but the healing gives hope.

I need rest, spiritual, emotional and physical all at the same time. Unfortunately it’s very hard to rest in all three areas at the same time.

I need to start writing my paper. Sorry it’s a bit of a downer but that’s how I feel.

I have found that the group of people I hang out have a very interesting dynamic (this includes me). The unexpected happened and what I some what expected didn't happen. Emotions have been stressed, strained, pulled, and twisted. Late nights and long days have been adding to all of it, not in a good way but not in a bad way either. But I suppose that depends on how you look at it.

Too much communication can cause as many problems and too little.

I just need to pray and keep moving.

i was going to write a little longer blog but my friends just showed up so i need to type fast.

so i have been in a very tired and unfocused mood to day. its mainly form monday and the good times we had there.

i might write more later.

RAMBLING YOU THINK ANY OF THIS IS RAMBLEING!!!!! Wow you have no idea. Just be glad I’m to lazy to type every thing I could/some what wanted to say.

24 was amazing. Jack was hot. Dole messed with Jack’s plan. Tom is being weird and… that’s all I’m going to say so I don’t ruin any thing for Kaija(if she happens to read this before she gets caught up).

I got a new Frisbee. I’m existed. Haven’t had a chance to use it yet but that’s ok.

That vespers thing is coming up so I got to get ready for that. And I’m working camera on Thursday. Hurray for some income!

My mom is sitting at the table with me and has not realized that I’m writing a blog instead of writing my paper.

Victory is my! muhaha

Ugh... the sun in behind the clouds and a storm is due for tomorrow. At least it was a nice week. A least out side. My week was stress full. Mainly form a math test. I didn't understand the material and after receiving the test I found out that during my cramming session I had really messed up one of the concepts. The retake will go better.

I finished reading a book on delta force, the army CTU. The CTU in 24 isn't really a counter terrorism unit. (Gasp how dare he speak blasphemy!!!) They’re more of an anti- terrorist unit. Counter terrorism means your terrorizing the terrorist. I could ramble on about delta force but I won't make you read it. I might make you listen to it tough.

Ok so had found a template/skin for this blog however blogger has gone though a recent overhaul converting all there scrip form html to xml. This has simply rendered all the old skins and such more or less use less. I’ll keep using this one until I can manage to build my own or I give up. With the later being more likely if you find a skin I might like that is in xml please leave a comment with a link.