So its 10:30 I’m finally eating dinner and haven’t started the paper I need to write to night. Emotion, stress and lack of sleep have been affecting me greatly. I’m over analyzing thing but when I think I am I question weather or not I’m not analyzing it enough. Relationships with friends and or more than friends are either in an awkward stage or seem to bee falling apart. People don't seem to be talking about the important stuff any more its just all drama. I feel that I’m in the middle of some sort of crisis but know one is telling me what it is. I feel like a def man who can’t hear the gunshots or the bullets flying past his head.

Damage has been done but I think I could have been avoided, or at least lessoned if people would talk face to face more and really come to a conclusion or make an effort to change. But now that the wound in there I need to do what I can to start to wash it out and patch it up so it ca heal. The cleaning hurts but the healing gives hope.

I need rest, spiritual, emotional and physical all at the same time. Unfortunately it’s very hard to rest in all three areas at the same time.

I need to start writing my paper. Sorry it’s a bit of a downer but that’s how I feel.